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Name: chris
State: Dirty Jerzey
Birthday: 3/14/1988
Gender: Male
Interests: snowboarding,skateboarding,lots and lots of music,my shoes..your shoes,nyc,clothing,
Occupation: Sales
Industry: Retail
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AIM:  ctothejl
Member Since:
3/20/2004
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| I used to say I never met a girl like you before Still ain't got a fuckin' clue as to who you truly were Now I just feel stupid for the loop that you threw me for Can't believe I almost flew the coop for some stupid girl You used to say all you wanted was for me to be yours
You started getting moody on me, pretty soon we'd argue And who woulda even knew that who woulda even thought possibly
Cupid could shoot another one of them God damn darts at me It's true that I got shot in the heart But when someone seems too good to be true, they usually are But see, when you're in it it's too hard to see Before you make a decision that's life altering And just as you halt and you turn and you start to leave You hear them words echoing, almost haunting, that taunting ring
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| so everythin has been hittin me in the last two weeks...i barley sleep anymore..i keep waking up every half hour..or hour during the night..it sucks..caz all i do is just lye there and think about shit...i had an interesting talk the other night...it made me realize alot of things...about what im doing...about who i miss..about what i want...i did realize one thing...i do miss my friend lars...we used to chill alot...and whenver i needed to get outta monroe id go chill with him...now that hes in college..it sucks..i barley talk to him...he's gotta girl now..and i guess he's happy...wich is good caz he deserves every bit of that....i also been thinkin bout school and shit..and how important this year is gunna be...college soon and all that shit...fantastic...i dont know what im doin with anythin right now...my fuckin job sucks...the pepole are chill but i dk..shits rough...so that doesnt look like its going anywhere anytime soon...im doin aight in school..passing...ive been gettin this werid feeling latley..i dont like it..its one of those things you can describe what it is...let me tell you its not one of them good ones..its one of them bad ones...i dk...sometimes i wonder what would have happned if i moved away from monroe..would shit be better? or would it be the same just in a differnt town? i guess ill never know...its fuckin madd cold out and in my house...im goin to sleep peace | | |
| i dont write in this alot....from time to time i forget about it....but tointe i have alot of shit to say....lets start off in general:
Life...there are the good times and the bad times...and sometimes in the middle...you can only hope for the good times to last forever...but when the bad times come..you just want to run away from it...you hate yourself for what is going on...why do i say this? because one of my close friends is goin through it right now...i know what its like...i know how it feels...you can only do so much for yourself to try to make yourself feel better...everyone goes through that feeling in their life atleast one time...after that one time you arent the same...your feelings change...you act differntly towards certain pepole...it becomes hard to trust pepole that really mean alot to you....why do i write this...i feel i need to let out what i wanted to say...along time ago...you may think this is werid...i dont care...i have realized alot of things...about the ones i care about alot...my friends..family...anyone that means alot to me...that without them...would i be where i am today? ... you alwayas have your closest friends...the ones that always got your back...in life you have to think who is going to be there for you...and who is just...pepole you "chill" with...but when the bad times come you shouldnt dwell on it...dont let that bring you down...think of the good times...think of your friends...i know i made that mistake a whiles back...and now i look at that situation..and realize how stupid i was....so for all you pepole that havent had that "bad time" happen to you yet...dont do what i did..wait almost a year and a half later to just talk about it..."love your friends....die laughing" | | |
| - hi my name is chris lee and i dont update my xanga because im too cool for it. oh yeah . im half chinese yo 
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